一生的功课。。。

一生中最难的功课是感恩。。。
永远学不完的功课。。。

im sorry to myself, my God, my parents, everyone who care for me

跟自己说声对不起，因为总是莫名的忧伤；跟自己说声对不起，因为为了别人为难了自己；跟自己说声对不起，因为伪装使到自己很累；跟自己说声对不起， 因为总是学不会遗忘；跟自己说声对不起，因为很多东西没有好好珍惜；跟自己说声对不起，因为倔强让自己受伤；跟自己说声对不起，因为总是和别人说对不起而 忘了自己 ；生活还在继续，于是我微笑着原谅了自己。” 想对得起未来的自己，从原谅曾经的自己开始。活，该快乐。

Bad day, bad mood, bad happened

It was a long time since the last post. i had a lot lot lot to share here (talk to myself).
i was tired, i had no strength to go on. i dont know how to face future, tomoro. suddenly, i lost all my hopes and strength to carry on. Lord, i'm tired and dont know how to go on.  Now right this moment , i lost my vision and direction. God, am i lost u? Are u still be there with me? Lord, i'm missing now

我不是喜欢笑才笑的，
我不是开心才笑的，
我不是高兴才笑的，
我不是心情好才笑的，
我不是想笑才笑的，
我不是真的想笑。。。
我只是不知道面对，所以才笑，
我只是不想别人看到我泪，
一个人难过就够了，
我只想眼泪流给自己够了，够了，仅此而已。
我不是假，我也希望在别人面前成为真实的我，
我只是想自己承担罢了。。。
我也不想发生的，真的。。。。。。。。
对不起，我让你们失望，对不起。。。
我不知道如何继续，真的不知道。。。
我时刻真的失去方向了，对不起， 我坚强不了了。。。。。。
对不起，我一点都不坚强。。。

Final exam for 1st semester!

Lord, please lead and guide my every steps that i walked is in Your path. I need Your strength and wisdom right now. May God bless my final exams as Your Will be done. 🙏 #pray #finals #exam
Proverbs 4:11 I have taught thee in the way of wisdom; I have led thee in right paths.
Proverbs 4:11 我已指教你走智慧的道，引导你行正直的路。
Proverbs 4:12 When thou goest, thy steps shall not be straitened; and when thou runnest, thou shalt not stumble.
Proverbs 4:12 你行走，脚步必不致狭窄。你奔跑，也不致跌倒。

A week without family

I thought I'm strong, but I'm not. I cried when the second family leaves me.  I miss them badly. I couldn't study... Thank God His prayer is with me as the song sang :')
Someone Is Praying For You有人在替你祈禱( 史茵茵)-英文: http://youtu.be/oARdO4wQFf4

Tests and trials

主,女儿我累了。心灵累, 或许因为承受了太多的压力和委屈。主,全世界都可以误会我,但你不可以, only U the only one can know my feelings.  God, the way is tough.  Lead me please. I need U. Show me Thy way please. May Your Will be done all the time. I lay down everything to U. Be my shoulder please.  I need u indeed. 

第二次为了成绩哭。。。

记得我曾经为了form 6 Sem 1 而失望, 现在大学,我再次哭了。对我自己太失望了, 只得了15/75。曾经是我最喜爱的数学,我却把它忘了一干二净。i really feel so bad, i don't know how i wanna stand for this 3 years. God, please be there for me. I really need U. God, the only thing i can do is praying. God, i trust no one. I don't even trust myself, but i trust in U. God, im sorry to U. I didn't glorified Your name. God , help me to walk in Your path. Never let me lost myself please.  I miss U and I love U.